the other night I was lying in bed listening to the purring snores of my southern gent, when an idea crossed my mind. the bulk of my really good thoughts happen in solitude. i picked up my phone and promptly deactivated my facebook account. moments earlier, i had come to the realization that i have lost my wonder. i had ceased to wonder about family and friend's lives. forms of social media have compromised a wonderful part of my imagination. i have noticed that social gatherings have changed. i don't have many questions for friends, because i know what they have been up to. i know their child got a haircut last week and they just returned from Jamaica. i know school started for a friend's teenage son and another friend just ended a marriage. it has stifled my curiosity and inquiries.
i want that wonder back. i want that innate desire to run into a friend and have an authentic conversation about where their journey has been taking them.
there are certainly elements i will miss. my facebook experience was always positive. i generated ideas and smiles scrolling down my news feed. i luckily did not experience any dramatic encounters in the multiple years i have been a member. facebook connects people like no other outlet ever has. i absolutely appreciate the time spent. and i can always re join if i get the itch.
until then, you can find me on instagram. i will have a much more private profile and mostly only follow people i don't have a personal connection with. you know, gwen stefani and lady gaga.
my hope is to pick up the phone more and write more emails. i hope to restore that wonder and i am confident it will swiftly return.